Dear diary #2

Dear diary
It's one of them days that i told you don't happen too often but none the less it's happening
where i feel down and out i guess.
so i have come to you to release some stress from my head into words i live on my own well not completely it's me and my brother for the most part we get a long very well we don't fight too often shocking right... oh i know!
well tonight is one of them night where i just wish i was still living at home with my mom growing up sucks sometimes to all you kids out there trust me you don't wanna grow up faster then you have to live as a kid and take things slow getting older is tuff more stress. But none the less i feel like i'm nerver appreciated  for all the things i do for my brother he works full time i don't have a job so he think i should do all the cleaning and laundry and picking up after him and his friends he cleans the house like every two months and thinks its the best thing ever he seems to not understand that when the house is clean most of the time it's from me doing it and when he has clean clothing on his back its because i got his clothing washed just because i don't have a job does not mean that i do everything that's something he does not get! i sort the garbage i do all the stuff like that the one thing i ask is for him to take it out and yet i still have to ask him 2 or 3 times he walks right past it i refuse to take it out when that's the only thing he is asked of.Sometime i wish i was at home for the summer to be with my friends all day everyday but yet i sit home alone in this appt all day bored out of my mind thank god for internet and blogging oh and YouTube is my life also tumblr i really don't no what i would do without those two things i would be legit crazy to say the least.
I don't want to have a pitty party on myself i do have a good life and i am very blessed for it but it;s like i feel i cant express my anger and issues i'm having with my bother he is the kind of person that thinks there word means more and that what they say is always right!... he also thinks he has more rights over the place then i do when we both pay! urggg life sometimes loves to make things hard!
i wish i had close knit friends like when i was younger everyone is sooo busy now a days it's hard to do anything without planning in a week or not having a person bale out at the last minute it saddens me i'm so lonely at times.
FML :'(